“As a child, I always loved the colour saffron. It gave me a lot of happiness, and was simply a colour that I was very fond of. Over the past couple of years, however, there is a certain disappointment I feel when I see the colour—I actively try to not like it. I understand that the colour saffron now comes with some baggage and there is a fear in me of being attached to a particular identity that the colour seems to entail today.
Not only with this, but also with my religion. I love my religion, and the stories that come with its canon, but whenever I find myself talking about it now I also cut myself off. I am scared that I will be considered to be part of an identity that I do not associate myself with. I am scared of what people will think.
It’s like being in love with a criminal.” — Varun Kurtkoti, when asked to talk about an incident that triggered some thought about the theme of identity.
What does it mean to see yourself in a certain way, while also being scared that someone else will see you in a different light?
This blog is an attempt to capture, in written form, some of our thoughts and conversations as we build the Unreserved performance.